Small groups, small steps

Susan has me doing small group work with some of the students in the second half of our class time during this fall session. She picks out four or five students who have the most difficulty producing words and sentences on their own, students who consistently depend on a neighbor to prompt them with the words in English or Nepali before they speak. My job is to go extra slow with these students, to have them repeat simple questions and answers over and over, so they can build some confidence in their own speaking capabilities rather than just repeat the sounds others make. I am also correcting small mistakes in syntax and pronunciation to help them form better foundational habits in their rudimentary English and avoid long-term linguistic problems.

Here's what that looks like:

Burka is Saraswati's husband. Saraswati is really sharp, and rather proficient in her English skills. When we worked with counting coins, she was the quickest in the class, both with the names of all the numbers, as well as the arithmetic. She has no problem answering rapidly when I ask her, "when did you come to the U.S.?" "I came to the U.S. on...," she says, and she fills in a date with the correct format of month, day and year--no problem. Then she turns to Burka and seamlessly asks him, "When did you come to the U.S.?" Burka stares at the table and waits.

Both Saraswati and Burka are probably in their late forties or early fifties, with ample crow's feet and other ravages of time across faces that smile easily. Burka is tall and thin with somber, dark eyes; Saraswati is short and compact with clear eyes that miss nothing. Saraswati paints the tikaon her forehead and wears sarong skirts with a large purple hoodie; Burka wears a black collared shirt and black jeans with flip-flops and does not mark his forehead. They have seven children.

No matter the question posed to Burka, he will stare at that table until Saraswati tells him what to say. This is not unusual for the entire group. They all help each other out with an "all for one, one for all" kind of camaraderie that is refreshing in the cut-throat competitive environment that America can foster. This can also be frustrating as a teacher because the "helping" often keeps slower students like Burka from making much progress of their own. Thus the small group work. So long as Burka sits next to Saraswati--and he always sits next to her--he will remain dependent on her for his answers.

This week, I had Burka in both Monday's and Wednesday's small group. Monday, I split the group into three sections according to what I saw as their respective levels, and had them work on different activities. Malati and Esther, our two newest students, seem very adept at writing already, so I had them work on some more advanced conversation involving days of the week. Buddha Rani and Kamala seem befuddled by writing, but speak readily, so I had them copying sentences down, in order to get written syntax and spelling perfected. For Burka, whose notebook looks like that of a first-grader, with a jumble of fat letters in no particular order, I wanted to get down to basics. I wrote out the alphabet for him, capitals and lower case, and asked him to copy all of it. Maybe this was a little too regressive, but I really didn't think it could hurt. He took to the task assiduously and completed letter g by the end of our half hour.

Switching gears from conversation with Malati and Esther, to correcting sentences for Kamala, to praising Burka's letters was exhausting. And I don't think I did anyone much good that day. More than once, I saw flat-out disdain--or maybe it was amusement; I hope it was amusement--in Malati's face, as I stammered and corrected myself, tried to figure out just where I had left off and what point I had been trying to make. All of the students were kind and polite with me. They are always kind and polite, smiling, laughing gently. They speak to each other in Nepali a great deal, and I always wonder what they're saying, assuming, of course, that they're telling each other how ridiculous I am. But maybe they're more generous than that; maybe they understand that these exercises are in their best interest and they're trying to zero in on the larger lesson, the deeper meaning. Maybe their Nepali interjections are similar to the English bits I would sprinkle into a French conversation class: clarifications and links to something I already know to reinforce memorization. I shouldn't underestimate their efforts.

On Wednesday, I took a different approach, both for their benefit and for my sanity. We do a lot of writing in this class, so I decided to take this one half-hour to just focus on speaking. I had Burka, Draupadi, Kamala, the female Chandra, and Jay, who is in his seventies and sometimes gets a little belligerent when I make him repeat things. I had been working with Jay alone before the break.

He had become very confused when Susan called him to the board to write his name and the date he came the U.S. I found it astonishing: to answer her command he wrote the word "name" and "date." And it was clear from his sincere expression that he was not making a joke. Rather than just dismiss him, I wanted to work with him and clarify what, exactly, "name" and "date" mean, because these were concepts he had known and been able to communicate months earlier. So we had already spent a good half hour separate from the class, at a table off to the side, working out what today's date was, and teasing out the date he had come to the U.S. He had been so confused by this--something he had previously known easily--that I had him get out his identification card so I could look at it. Unsmiling and without his topi in the photo, he looked even older than he does every day. The gray stubble on his chin looked forlorn; the tika on his forehead seemed cartoonish; his eyes were wide with childish fright. My frustration with his obtuseness melted away, and we began to make some progress.

I wrote out the sentence "when did you come to the U.S.?" As Jay copied it into his own notebook, he repeated the words aloud, sounding out the letters phonetically, elongating them, so the words became a lilting song. I noticed how pure his concentration was, how he seemed not to notice the sounds of the rest of the class behind him, or the sound of his own voice ringing out when the others fell silent. He focused only on my yellow pad, on the letters forming from the tip of his pencil, and the music he made of them with his voice. The deep connection he formed with words through music moved me. When Susan and the class stood up to take the exercise break, I had to touch Jay's arm to break the magical spell of his concentration. And I was almost sorry to do it.

The rest of the small group that Wednesday went well. We worked our way through four questions and answers: where are you from? what day is today? are you married? and do you have children? For each question, I started by asking Burka; he answered, then asked Kamala, who answered and asked Draupadi. She answered and asked Jay, who answered and asked Chandra, who answered and asked me. Around and around we went, ever so slowly. I gently corrected each of them for slips in syntax or mispronunciation; we laughed at ourselves and let each other take as much time as needed to get it right. When I asked Burka the final question, he surprised me. He had been gaining a bit of confidence throughout the half hour, hesitating a little less when it was his turn, making more eye contact, speaking a little louder.

"Burka, do you have children?" I expected to have to repeat the question, as I had all the others. but he answered right away.

"Yes, I have seven children."

"Wow! That's great!" I blurted out the superlative compliment before I could help myself. We hadn't really worked on inserting a number like that, just on the generic yes or no answer. His was a rather sophisticated response, in perfect syntax, without hesitation. I wanted to reinforce this progress as much as possible. I gave him a thumbs up. "Good job, Burka! Really good job!"

We finished our set of questions, and I saw that our time was up. Saraswati came over to fetch her husband, as everyone gathered their notebooks and bags.

"Saraswati, Burka did really good work today!" I don't believe I have seen a more genuinely happy smile on a grown man's face as I saw on Burka at that moment. He looked like a much younger man for a moment. And I felt like a real teacher.

New Class, Same as the Old Class

New Class, Same as the Old Class

The summer ESOL class ended in August, and we took two weeks off. In that interim, I resumed classes and my assistantship at the university, observed Labor Day, and had the first of many nervous break-downs about my thesis project. On September 9th, my eighteenth wedding anniversary, we began the fall session of Basic Life Skills.

The traffic outside the International Institute was a little more hectic than it had been over the summer; yellow school zone lights flashed in front of Findley Elementary school, slowing my progress up the hill of Tallmadge Avenue. It was a mild summer, but now humid air lies thick and heavy over Akron, swelling wooden door frames, frizzing hair, and shortening people's fuzes. My walk down the basement stairs of the Institute today is a welcome descent into chilled, curry-scented respite.

We have twenty students today from our summer class, and I remember all but one of their names--Ratna did not come every day, so I was never really solid on her anyway. Only one new student joins us, Malati, who comes in a little late with Buddha Rani. Malati is short and heavy-set with deep-set eyes and a sunny smile.

Chandra almost immediately beckons me to come look at his notebook. He has been working on the citizenship question, as per his usual. Today he asks about question #84: What movement tried to end racial discrimination? Answer: The Civil Rights Movement.

"Is it right?" He asks me. "Yes," I tell him. "That's a big word for you: discrimination. Do you know what that means?"

He goes blank for a minute, tries to pronounce it and stumbles. "De-crimi...de-scree-mee-nation. No? What it means?"

I pause for a minute, wondering exactly how I can simplify this complex term to convey the basics of it for him without condescending too much. Chandra is a smart guy; he may be the most intelligent student in the class. It's just that he's not fluent enough yet for these kinds of discussions in English.

"Well, race is about skin color," I begin, knowing full well that Tika and Jay, on either side of Chandra are listening closely, as are probably many others. "So you're brown and I'm white, but we are the same, really." Here I put my arm against his to highlight our differing skin tones. "Discrimination is when someone says that black people or brown people should have different rights than white people."

Both Chandra and Tika look at me with completely blank expressions, and I know I have failed to explain sufficiently. I want to try again, but just then Susan comes in, and Chandra wants to pay attention to the beginning of class.

On Wednesday, Chandra calls me over again, and again he asks me about question #84, as well as question #85, which is: What did Martin Luther King, Jr., do? The answer he has written is fought for civil rights and worked for equality for all Americans. Well, this will make the explanation of discrimination a little easier, I think to myself.

"Is right?" Chandra asks me.

"Yes, it's right!" I read the questions and answers out loud so he can hear what the words sounds like. Then I just continue with the explanation I had started on Monday.

"Equality for all Americans. So, that's what it means to end discrimination, right? So, whether you're black or brown or white," here I point at Chandra's darker skin and my lighter skin, " or yellow or green or whatever, it doesn't matter. We are all the same. Right?"

Tika and Chandra laugh a little, looking at me with big eyes, and I hear Bishnu, a few people over to my right, echo a few of my words: "some people are black or brown or yellow or green," then he giggles a little, too. They are not unkind laughs, just kind of reflexive laughs, almost of surprise or astonishment. I sally forth.

"So discrimination is treating people different for how they look, right?" Tika and Chandra nod, so I have to believe they are understanding me on some level. "But we have the same rights, no matter what color we are, right? We are all the same! Bori-bori! Right?" I make the sort of you're out motion with both hands that Karna made when he taught me that bori-bori means same in Nepali. "You understand?" Chandra holds up his thumb and index finger in the universal expression of a little bit and says, "little, little."

Susan has come in and is starting class, but I can't help but feel Chandra, at least, has understood this concept. There is a light of intelligence behind his eyes; he is inquisitive, always trying to go beyond what the class does, beyond what he is capable of. He never seems bored in class, even when we are going over the same old lesson that I know he knows by heart. He usually has the right answers quickly, but he is patient with the slower students and offers help to them kindly, without the judgmental tone a few of the women can produce. I wonder what his life was like in Bhutan, what kind of job he did. He seems less suited to agrarian life than many of the others in the class, more naturally inclined to Occidental garb and urban rhythms. And I wonder what his wife is like; she has never come to the Basic Life Skills class. Perhaps she stays home with their children.

But more than anything, I wonder what Chandra and Tika and all the others think of me, of this yellow-haired lady who smiles a lot and laughs at weird things and thanks them for coming to class and often scribbles in a notebook and is always eager to learn how to say things in Nepali and does the exercise breaks with them and brings them cookies on the last day of summer class and blushes when she mispronounces their names and tells them about discrimination and doesn't have any children. I'd love to know what they think of me.